something to think about

ok so i'm a sucker for those quote of the day items in my gmail account. this is one that i saw today and found very interesting:

Quote of the Day - Shakti Gawain - "You create your opportunities by asking for them."

if that's true, then hopefully the situation i'm in will work itself out.

on a better note, my friend jenn got married this weekend and i just wanted to say:

Congratulations and Best Wishes, Mr. & Mrs. Alonzo!!! I was very honored to stand up for you.

have you ever made a decision you regret?

i made one recently and still reeling from the after effects...

love to hear what you've gone through. i know not too many people read this, so feel free to comment as much as you like...maybe then i'll share my experience with you.

love is...part 2...

i do have people that care about me. i'm going through a really rough personal time and trying to stay strong, but when someone asks me if i'm ok, i am literally on the brink of tears.

i'm starting to wonder if i made a mistake...i keep trying to tell myself that i didn't - that this was for the best, but a friend pointed out to me that love is not a feeling, it's a choice.

so what was my choice?

to stay and see if things would change? how long do you wait? how long do you tell yourself hey i'll stay around and see if things will get better? maybe i just lost my temper and made a horrible decision. or i made the right decision just saw it out in the wrong way.

let's just leave it at he is a great man....

love is...

...not exactly perfect. and when it seems that way, i've learned, something is missing.

i'm not perfect, and i know in my head i can't expect anyone to be perfect.

but you know what i do want? i want passion and romance. it will fade, as a wise person pointed out to me, but not to have that at all - then what? you miss out on the butterflies? you miss out on the smiles that come across your face when you get a sweet email, text, or call?

i know we're not all alike. humans are just meant to be different - otherwise we'd all be boring. but as another relationship has ended, i've learned i need that passion, the fight, that drive - to feel that someone loves me for me. i keep changing for people, when all i need to do is stay and be myself.