Saturday, June 7, 2008

i have the best boyfriend ever...

ok my boyfriend seriously earned major points this week...and i know i may sound juvenile or immature, but he got me tickets to the NKOTB concert in October. i was bummed out for a couple of weeks that the first show sold out, and i didn't get tickets. a second show was added, and my boyfriend surprised me and got me tickets!!! i'm super pumped, and i don't care if that makes me a nerd. they were one of my favorite bands growing up, and i never got to go to one of their concerts.

for all of my fellow NKOTB fans, enjoy!!

Wednesday, June 4, 2008

i know...i've been MIA

ok, so a friend of mine myspaced me and said i needed to update my blog, so here goes...

basically i have no life right now due to work and studying for the LSAT. it's in 10 days, and needless to say, i'm pretty nervous about it. but i've been preparing, and hopefully that will pay off. law school has always been a dream of mine, and i'm pretty close to getting there.

i haven't had much to write because of that.

but, i did start a new job in january, which i love! it's stressful and challenging, but it's a step in my career path.

and i'm currently obsessed with the new jason mraz song i'm yours. i LOVE the video, and the album is pretty good.

Thursday, October 11, 2007

something to think about

ok so i'm a sucker for those quote of the day items in my gmail account. this is one that i saw today and found very interesting:

Quote of the Day - Shakti Gawain - "You create your opportunities by asking for them."

if that's true, then hopefully the situation i'm in will work itself out.

on a better note, my friend jenn got married this weekend and i just wanted to say:

Congratulations and Best Wishes, Mr. & Mrs. Alonzo!!! I was very honored to stand up for you.



Monday, October 8, 2007

have you ever made a decision you regret?

i made one recently and still reeling from the after effects...

love to hear what you've gone through. i know not too many people read this, so feel free to comment as much as you like...maybe then i'll share my experience with you.

Wednesday, October 3, 2007

love is...part 2...

i do have people that care about me. i'm going through a really rough personal time and trying to stay strong, but when someone asks me if i'm ok, i am literally on the brink of tears.

i'm starting to wonder if i made a mistake...i keep trying to tell myself that i didn't - that this was for the best, but a friend pointed out to me that love is not a feeling, it's a choice.

so what was my choice?

to stay and see if things would change? how long do you wait? how long do you tell yourself hey i'll stay around and see if things will get better? maybe i just lost my temper and made a horrible decision. or i made the right decision just saw it out in the wrong way.

let's just leave it at he is a great man....

Tuesday, October 2, 2007

love is...

...not exactly perfect. and when it seems that way, i've learned, something is missing.

i'm not perfect, and i know in my head i can't expect anyone to be perfect.

but you know what i do want? i want passion and romance. it will fade, as a wise person pointed out to me, but not to have that at all - then what? you miss out on the butterflies? you miss out on the smiles that come across your face when you get a sweet email, text, or call?

i know we're not all alike. humans are just meant to be different - otherwise we'd all be boring. but as another relationship has ended, i've learned i need that passion, the fight, that drive - to feel that someone loves me for me. i keep changing for people, when all i need to do is stay and be myself.

Monday, August 13, 2007

on a serious note...

so what do you do when two of your closest friends stop talking to you?

for me, it's been a mourning of sorts. i know what happened and in all honesty, i feel extremely betrayed and hurt. the sad thing is i haven't talked to either one of these people for over a year now. the only communication we have is via email or text, and that is if i make the first move.

i just don't understand where they are coming from, and it's not like either one of them is bold enough to talk to me about it.

and, just like that, 2 people that i used to talk to on a consistent basis - one almost every day, vanished. how do you react? do i summon up the courage to talk to these people? or do i just let it be?

and what i don't understand is that i was a good friend to both of them. always there when they needed me - driving out to seem them if they asked - yet receiving none of that in return. and when they are called out on that, amongst other events, hearing nothing? dropping me as if we didn't share all those intimate details of our lives?

i just don't understand people.